Saturday, April 26, 2008,10:16 PM
lonely..
i know. if these kind of pics appear on a blog it means something is up. & something IS up. but nothing i'm gonna say on this blog.so i'll just sidetrack you peeps with this story:
i REALLY MISS HIM!
i know, i know, i was supposed to meet him, but honestly? i didn't. i was SUPPOSED to but i just ignored him. dont ask me why! i'm gonna scream any minute now!
FREAKK!!!!
then i sorta went outta contact for a while and then i saw him again at the void deck with his bro and a bunch of squealing girls[primary]...in the middle of a water bomb fight.
and then syarriel was on about a -this is the part that makes me go "whatt??"- wedding of all things!
i was like so stunned that i ignored him. now i'm wishing i had said something sassy in front of him, but come to think of it, i have no idea what i would've said anyway.
so i managed to drag my reluctant bro away from the darn water fight [wished i had participated-man! wasted oppurtunity] and there i go, wishing and wishing that i couldve talked to HIM alone.
sheesh. i become so pathetic when i'm around him.
i just WISH i can see him more!! i just dont want to make myself scarce around him because if you dont see someone very often, you tend to forget him/her, right? so that's EXACTLY what i'm trying to avoid!
omg. i am so freaking out here. it's how he makes me feel.
and now i TOTALLY sympathise with those emo girls who slash their wrists because of a boy. not that i would commit suicide over a boy, but that they were stupid enough, like me, incidentally, to start liking a boy so much that they can't get out of it.
because that's what's happened to me. i'm liking him so much i think it hurts. ok. back to normal now.
*GET OUTTA MY ROOM YOU MORON!*
