Sunday, July 6, 2008,5:05 PM
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just to clarify things in my head. i totally need to clear things out or i'll get a migraine first thing tomorrow.
1) i am SUPPOSED to be over him but i am NOT because for some reason both HIS face and his brother's face pops into my head. mostly with them arguing, but whatever.
2) i am NOT supposed to fail maths or any other subject for that matter. What the heck, i'm supposed to get at least a B4 for all my subjects. that, or get a B for my grade point average.
3) i am supposed to act the GOOD girl in the house, like, permanantly because my stinking bro is useless and a 3-year-old kid is more harm than good.
4) i am NOT supposed to be complaining about materialistic stuff because i am, apparently, older and am supposed to be all mature and good.
5) i am supposed to STUDY and BABY-SIT and CLEAN UP the house once i get back from home.
WHAT. THE. HELL.
now, i am tempted to scream vulgarities here, but i shall not. otherwise i'll have to put that adult content thingy here.
but this is so freaking unfair! i mean, i can live with point no. 1, 2 and 4. i'm even okay with no. 3 for a while.
but number 5?
say it's a friday. i have CCA and i go back at, say, 6.00, which is like the bare minimum. i have to rush back so that i can reach back by 6.30 and fetch my sis. i reach back at 7.00. by 7.15 i've turned on Barney for her and made milk. then i shower and clean up the house. by the time THAT'S done, it's like 7.45.
then i'll eat dinner till 8.15. stress right? so i watch TV till 9.30. then i have to either study or do homework till 10, where i shall watch the ghost whisperer.
tell me. can i fit a lot of studying in that?
actually, i can. i can take away ALL the TV, leaving me with 2 hours 15 minutes to study. but then where's my rights to relax? you want to turn me into a mindless drone or what?
my parents have way too high expectations. they think i'm wonder woman. heck, it's not like i go bunk off school and go white sands or something. no, i have freaking CCA. can i get out of that? no.
take the other day. can't remember the date, but i rmber it was the first floorball training for girls after june hols. which kinda narrows it down to last last friday.
i finished CCA at 6.43. hell, netball girls had left. & you know how late netball girls leave. ding ding ding. bus just left. i have to wait. & while waiting, i run into mr Z, which doesn't really brighten my day. walk back, it's 7+.
& i'm supposed to study after a long long UG training?
Shit this world.
